Well I left. I stayed at my parents for a week and then moved into a place that my parents own that was empty. Since I had laid my boundaries down a few months ago, I was preparing to leave. I knew he wouldn't be able to live up to normal expectations (even though I want him to for the sake of our 2 boys). And now I just want to get divorce
https://onlinedivorcer.com/online-divorce-texasMy ex has gone through many emotions so far.. wanting to know where I am, telling me he was keeping the kids one night (I'm still breastfeeding my 1.5 yr old at night and he's never been apart from me at night) and that if I picked up my youngest he would call the cops to letting me come get him, telling me he realized how much I was really doing, blah blah.
The main point of this post is that he is all "woe is me". He lost his job about 2 months ago and he's having trouble finding another one. Even though he has done all this shit to me over the years, I'm finding myself still comforting him! Still trying to make sure he's okay. How can I train myself to stop? I justify it to myself by saying I need to be on good terms for the kids because until paperwork is filed, he has every right to take them as much as I do. And if I have to "play nice" to keep them, then I will.
He's so sad, blah blah. Why did it take me leaving for you to change... is the change going to be real?